Immersed too much I think....

They say never immerse yourself too much in sad and sorrow movies or music or you'll be emotionally affected by them. I have to agree with that because today's entry is inspired by what I have been OD-ing. haha

Don't worry. I'm not emo. Just that what I have been soaking myself into are trying to make me learn something out of them. I remember I wanted to run away for a while because I realise that life's too tough all of a sudden. I feel a certain amount of emptiness, anger, fear and anxiety. Then my sister reminded me of a prayer that I made to God, asking Him to help me grow up from my overprotectiveness. Indeed, He heard my prayer. (be careful what you pray for next time, alright? ahahahahhahahah)

They say what we see in movies and dramas are mostly ultra exaggerations of the reality, but I think not all of them. The two Korean dramas I am watching now feature ex-convicts trying to make it in life but despised by the society. Then I watched this new (and celaka because the dvd seller said it will sound goood but turned out poor. I cannot even understand Bond and M's conversation sometimes...well, they are speaking Briton) Bond film and saw how people are willing to let the poor suffer for the sake prosperity and power. I am wondering why must the world be like this? What makes us human beings so special till we assume we have the power to determine other people's life and future?

Don't mistake me for being intelligent coz I'm not. Just frustration, and reflection. I wonder how and why money and fame can turn people into beasts? Why do many people still dress their life manequins with prejudice and superficial judgements? So what if a person is an ex-con? Does that make him/her a bad person already? Have we tried hard enough to dive deep into his heart and seek the treasures of his/her life? And am I going to turn out the same as these people when I grow up? I really don't know but I wish I will not have to.

I really want to be a great listener to people's problems. I really want to be a great comforter, and be an understanding man who only judge a person after I get to know one well. I want to be able to talk to a person even if he/she does not have the same dream and principles as I do, coz everyone has a wonderful story to tell. Even if the person had a bad past, I hope I'll be there to lift him up and give him a new start. This is my prayer, and I really hope one day I'll be one.

Btw, today's my adik's birthday.I wish him all the very best in everything and hope he'll learn how to bake cheesecake soon, coz that's the time he'll be useful at home. ahahahhahahahaha. kidding lah.       

Change..

I have a Tanzanian classmate and when he was told that Obama had won the presidential election, he just casually answered 'So?' Rare for someone of colour to react like that, but then again, we should not stereotype like what the McCain's supporter did.

I read Thursday's NST yesterday and realise that certain (white) people are still racist or have issues when it comes to people of colour being in power. There was this person who said 'We'll just let Obama do whatever he does for four years, coz Americans will not vote for an African-American president again'. Then, theer's was this aunty..I think, who said that 'America is not ready for an African-American president.

I seriously have no idea why they insist in saying that Obama's plan encourages the deterioration of family values, but what I have learned growing up is that everyone deserves a chance to attempt. Be it representing the school for debate competition, try to woo a supernmodel, do a football star, be a president and so on, no one can really predict or estimate a result before trying. Anastasia from Cinderella also found her husband wat in Cinderella 2, so why can't certain people succeed in doing something.

Again I think it's the stereotype people put on coloured people. Many whites always think that people of colour cannot achieve great measures and are always causing chaos. Hey. Those mad killers in Columbine High School in 1999 were white kids what. Why don't we blame them? And many white people commit crimes what. Then why in World's Most Amazing Police Video, most of the criminals are the Negros and Latinos? Just because people have darker pigments they have more tendency to commit crimes kah? Insane!!!

Obama's win also in a a way inspired the Parliament members to to talk about him in their speeches. Some of them even said that we should take American as an example for their cross-cultural choice. The funny thing is that we Malaysians want to practice that. Just that certain laws or parties in our lovely country kept emphasising on certain race's superiority. We respect them but we are Malaysians now. Why do we have to care or label ourselves different among us?

Do you know that in Tanzania, if a Muslim president is the leader for 10 years, the next 10 years, a Christian leader will take over? Its amazing how countries like this practice such values in their politics.  

People have different sexual triggers in them that make them happy. My adik was so happy when a Korean girl in his college thought he was one of them. He went around calling his BFFs, asking them to clarify whether he has Korean-ness in him.

Adikku yang berbangsa Korea Selatan celup. Hahahahah.

I was tired when I sent him to college this morning. When I arrive home, the radio played Corinne Bailey Rae's Put Your Records On. I remember I used to find that song dull but today when it played through my ears, it made me relax. All my worries for my exams, assignments and the song competition were instantly shed. It was like a therapy and I thank God for that song.

People find refuge and happiness in many ways. What's amazing is they sometimes come unexpectedly. Sometimes randomness do give our life surprises, and I wonder why people still consult fortune-teller and horoscope to take a glimpse of their future. It is like sucking out all the fun of living and everytime something happens, we are less enthusiastic about it.

Hahah. Life is interesting.